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Darn Good!

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I’m just going to go ahead and say the thing that maybe I’m not supposed to say because it doesn’t sound proper. I’m a darn good mother! It might give you the impression that I have it all figured out, and that I’ve got my stuff together, which I don’t.  Most days I feel like anything but a good mom.  I don’t always follow the rules I read about in magazines or baby books.  When my son was first moved to his crib, I didn’t let him cry it out. (Gasp I know!) I didn’t wait until he cried himself to sleep, because for some reason 5 minutes felt like an hour, and I just couldn’t do it.  Instead, I went in and soothed him.  He is 13 now, and he seems to have turned out ok.  There were times when I let my daughter come in my room and snuggle with me in the middle of the night even though I “should” have walked her back to her own bed, but guess what?  She is sleeping just fine in her own bed now and I miss her cuddles.  I must admit to you that there are times when I don’t let me kids learn that very important lesson of responsibility when they have forgotten their lunch at home or shin guards for a big game.  I think you are “supposed” to let them go through the natural consequence of maybe buying the school lunch and then not eating it, or not playing at the game.  It is 100% important to me that my kids are responsible adults, yes.  But, I might run to Academy one hour before a soccer game to grab those shin guards, and then cheer my son on once the ref blows that whistle.  As far as lunch is concerned, my daughter might have gotten half of my sandwich and some of my grapes.

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I don’t do everything I am supposed to.  I do beat myself up about it sometimes, and wonder if I am doing it all wrong.  Am I messing up my kids? I replay the day in my head once my kids are asleep and I wonder if I could have done something different, or “should” I have done something another way instead.

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Yea, I don’t seem to do a lot of the things I am “suppose” to do.  I do have full on concerts in the car with my daughter after I pick her up from dance.  And I have long conversations with my son about his school day and things he wants to accomplish.  I run with him, slowly and a bit behind even though I don’t feel like it because I’d rather him not run alone at night. Even though I might break the “rules” sometimes, and make up my own.  I’m a darn good mother.  Because I’m doing the best I can the best way I can for my family.  At the end of the day, I am a darn good mother because I tried.  To all the mothers out there today, and every day, Happy Mother’s Day.  We are darn good!

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New Year, New (or Same but finally doing it) Goals

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So, currently I am obsessed with finding the perfect planner to squash my 2017 goals.  I don’t want to use the word resolutions because I have not had very much luck in actually seeing my resolutions through in the past years, or ever really.  I start of strong, with lots of ideas, and they are all written down, but it ends there. They say a goal without a plan is just a dream.  I have been dreaming of quite awhile.  I tell myself I am more of an ideas person.  I get lots of really great ideas that I get really excited about, but then the execution doesn’t ever really pan out.  So for this new year, one of my goals is to have a plan to attack my goals.  Simple enough right?  Here are some other things I would like to happen in the 2017 year… Heck why not just say the next 30 days.  One of the planners I bought is about starting with small goals.  30 days at a time and then maybe adding new goals or continuing with the one you were working on before.  My list is as follows:img_7144-1

  • Actually do and finish BBG by Kayla.  I have the app on my phone called “Sweat with Kayla.” I don’t have to go to the gym and spend my work out time on drive time or be concerned that my kids are alone.  I do have a 12-year-old and a 10-year-old and I have from time to time left them to go to the grocery store really quick or run an errand.  However, I have watched many a Lifetime movie, and have a plethora of scenarios that could go wrong in the back of my head to make it just uncomfortable enough for me to not truly enjoy a workout.  The workouts on the app or only 30 minutes and for 30 days that should be doable.
  • I would like to drink warm, lemon water every day.  I have tried it, just have never been very consistent.  I have read that drinking lemon water in the morning right before you eat or drink anything else, has a massive list of benefits.  If you are a Pinner, just go on Pinterest and you will see what I mean. The benefits range from clearer skin to protecting your body from disease. A must do, if I can only a) remember to do so and b) not reach for my coffee first thing in the morning.
  • Write my two pages a day like author Kate Dicamillo.  It seems easy, but as I have discovered it isn’t as simple.  I have to come up with something to write about and then stop the voice in my head that expects my piece or writing to touch everyones lives.  I haven’t quite figured out how to do that.  So for now, two pages a day of whatever comes into my head is where I will start.  I eventually would like to begin a young adult novel this year.
  • Another goal I have is to stop using Jesus as a fire extinguisher.  I am great at praying and going to my bible when something is going wrong, however when everything is in place, I don’t forget Him, I just forget to praise Him for all He does for me.  I would like to change that and allow Jesus to be more of a center point in my day.  Start with prayer and end in prayer, and fill it up with prayer throughout the day.  I can get very anxious, and stressed.  I run around my days most of the time complaining inwardly and running low on fuel. I hit the mat pretty hard after my to do list punches me in the face and takes the wind out of me.  I have found, and know that for me, if I start my day in thanksgiving and prayer, and I continue throughout the day, I tend to have peace and joy in pursuing the illusive check off my to do list.

I have a lot of other ways I would like to better myself.  I would like to make more home cooked meals for my family.  I would like to add more green, leafy vegetables to my palette every day.   I would like to spend less money and pay off some of the debt that I have acculmated in search of the holy grail of planners, among other things.  I want to finish one of the many Netflix shows I have begun but haven’t finished.  I want to dress for success, and throw kindness around like confetti, and work hard and stay humble and all those other motivational quotes I am always Pinning on my board.

For this 2017, I will take it one month at a time.  I will write down some actual steps in achieving my goals one day at a time.  I will remember that slow and steady wins the race, and it is okay to fail, as long as I continue moving after I brush myself off.  Happy New Year! Let’s get this party started!

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